As you may have noticed, I haven't been active in the past few days, and there's a reason for that: my health has deteriorated significantly to such an extent that I had to be hospitalized for the last four days.
This is the hospital where I was admitted and released last night, about 10:30 p.m.
Please keep in mind that I have edited certain elements in this photo for privacy and legal concerns.
In a room like this, you get a lot of time to think about certain things, and a consultant came by twice a day and talked to you for two hours twice a day. Then there was the respective ward sister who was assigned to you and gave you food and drinks. But there was nothing else available in this room, and this is an original photo from the hospital and the room where I stayed for the last four days.
My major depression disorder status was officially changed to the second most severe status a depressed person can have. This second stage is called several, or clinical depression. I'm currently taking the highest possible dose of antidepressants that a woman can tolerate, and I'm just trying to forget the pictures in which I basically saw what I would most like to do with myself.
I will do therapy twice a month with my personally entrusted psychotherapist and hope that this will have a positive effect and that all the tiredness and exhaustion that will arise in the next few weeks will be worth it.
However, this will also mean that my social media presence, the updates, and the frequency with which they appear on this website will definitely be significantly reduced. This means that I will only be writing reviews on Monday and Friday, and I think it will be either one or two per day, and my personal "moment of the month" series will only be available on Sunday.
This phase of depression that it has reached has a very small chance of being cured, and this chance is less than 30%. But I'm trying to see this as a positive number and trying everything possible to live from day to day and, to be honest, live every remaining day as if it were my last, and I think that's the most sensible thing to do in this situation, and I know that 30% sounds like a lot, and that's exactly what gives me hope in this situation. Live in the moment is my motto in life. And I will do that moving forward.
I still have a few goals in my life, not only in the country I am currently in but also for other countries, and I am trying to work on these wishes step by step very slowly and with a lot of patience and observation of my health and dreams. I'm incredibly sorry that my business and this website's presence are suffering as a result, but these measures are currently needed because they are necessary.
I would like to thank everyone who has supported me up to this point and who will continue to be loyal to me. I would also like to thank the people who have helped me the most in the past, and I hope that you will continue to support me in the future. That is the current status of the situation, and I just wanted to let you know.
Thanks,
Lovely
