Hello, my dears,
Today's topic is Broken Heart. On the one hand, I'm demi but also poly. And now all you have to do is put two and two together, and I can't do that anymore. My heart just can't take it. I think about this woman every second, and it breaks my heart just to know that I know nothing.
Second, I don't know if any of you have ever done CBT in your life. I need every second to just focus on what I enjoy doing in life, and CBT is all about doing what you shouldn't do. That's what I like so much about my best therapist in the world, who never told me what to do, but always what not to do. One of his tips was: don't free yourself from the feeling that you are not alive. I am currently doing that. And it's damn hard to enjoy the things that are fun in life. CBT can be so brutal, it's not normal anymore. It's evil for me, just shit. And that's been the case for two months. I already felt the downtrend in February and I feel that it is far from over.
I find the question about how I'm doing so superfluous that I don't even give an answer anymore. But this little text is a glimpse into my world and how I'm really doing.
If you want to read more about CBT check my series here
